| | I sawk, I swear. I haven't been doing well in school lately at all. I only have an A in German, and an A in German is like... Easy. Not much going on either. Neil wanted me to update, tho.. Pft~ I have so many things about him to complain about... Blah~ I have nothing to do anymore... So bored!! So I have to say what's on my mind... Since it's easier to type things than to actually say them.
It's stupid. What's stupid, you ask? Well, the fact that I'm always the one to go over to his house to see him now. All I ask for is for him to come over, even if just to stop by for a few seconds or something. It'd brighten up my say, you know...?? It's just difficult for me because I'm so used to seeing him almost every day, even though it's been a few months already. I thought I was getting used to it, but it just kind of got worse. I tried really badly yesterday too. He wouldn't come over to see me. I guess it's like a one-way love sometimes... Or most of the time. Hearing him say "I love you" doesn't feel the same as it used to. I mean, I love him to death. Honestly, I do. If I could, I'd go see him every day. But it's difficult for me to do so. It's like he doesn't care sometimes. Sometimes I think "Hey.. He doesn't really care about me.. Why should I call?" or "Why am I so stupid for thinking that he'd be worried about me?" Maybe I expect too much from him. He has things to do. I can't expect that he'd actually wonder if there's something wrong with me. I shouldn't even be in a relationship. I don't even think I'm emotionally capable of having a relationship where I can be happy most of the time.
Or maybe I'm just PMSing.. I dunno. I get kind of emotional when it's almost time for my period.. I should just get a book of some sort where I can just complain about everything so I don't bother people with this stupid shit..
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